Keeping your emotions in, is actually, pretty hard for me. As I grow older, I do my best to not let my emotions get the best of me. I smile and pretend like nothing bad ever happened – like it never bothered me.
Sometimes it’s hard and my emotions just come up to the surface, biting anyone that’s near.
Not really fair to the innocents, I know. I do try to not let it get too out of hand – when it comes to the innocent people.
I’m nice that way, at least.
But I have to say, I actually like myself when I’m angry. Weird, right? But the thing is, when I’m angry – everyone else is second. I’m first. I’ll do me, and no one else is getting in my way. That’s how I’m like when I’m really angry.
But unfortunately, I’m someone that hardly ever gets really angry to the point I’m like that. It takes a lot to build me up till that point. Pity.
It sucks how I genuinely always put others before me. Can’t help it. It’s been my instinct since day one, I suppose. So you can at least see I wasn’t kidding when I said I’m nice. If you asked any of my friends, they’d say I’m too pure for this world. Weird.
Y’all probably think “this is some tumblr emo bullshit” and hey, I don’t disagree.
Side note is I wanna find someone that’s like my angry side. Cause damnn, they’d be fine af.
Probably narcissistic in a sense, but hey – I would date me if I could;)
Is it too late to say, “Happy New Year”? Maybe. But Happy New Year, anyways!~