I’m free to wander off
Yet I stay and wait
Many doors are open
But the door to you is closed
I could fly away
Since there are no strings to hold me back
Yet I continue to wait
For your door to open
Silly, I know
But to me,
It’s the most important thing in my life
And I could never do without it
There are times where, out of the blue, I feel empty. It always catches me off guard. I wish I knew why.
There’s a reason for everything, right? Surely, there must be a reason for this.
Sometimes I can’t help but think if it has something to do with you.With you by my side, I never once felt empty. Even if you were with others, I’d feel like you were right by my side.
With you gone, I lost some of my strength. But, that’s not why I want you back. I wouldn’t care if I was still weak when you return.
When you return, I know I’ll be whole again. Thus that’s why I’m waiting. Even if I am a fool,a truly idiotic fool at that, for waiting – I want you in my life again.
We’d laugh and cry again. I was a fool to ask more from you. I was greedy then. But mistakes are made to be learnt from, right?
How I wish I could talk to you sooner. Time flies ever so slowly when you’re not by my side. It’s almost suffocating, really.
I’m aware I have so many amazing people in my life but honestly, I feel like I don’t deserve them. I feel like I don’t deserve any of them. Not even you.
You’re not like me, I know that. But I’ve never been good at reading you. Whereas, you always knew what was going on with me. Sometimes I wonder if you left because I was too troublesome.
Would you return if I became less of who I am and more of what you want me to be? If it’s like that, I truly wouldn’t know what to do.
I don’t ever know what to do. Is this why I feel empty?
I’m a fool, aren’t I? Tell me, I am. I can’t move on properly. You want me to do that, right? But I can’t.
Make me hate you, please. I’m begging. I don’t want to feel empty for three lonesome years.
Sometimes we don’t really have a choice for who we fall for. It may come of as a shock when you realise you’ve fallen hard for that person
Sometimes that can be a good thing.
For me, however, it was a bad thing.
To solely focus all my love on one person wasn’t my best decision. That’s because when they left due to the problems I caused,
I was blaming myself continuously.
I was thinking that I was a joke
I didn’t want anyone but them
But I still want them
Up to now, I’ve never understood it. I question myself over and over again but I never find the answer I want.
– Rouge H.